The house is in Chatou, a southwest suburb of Paris. It has proper French tree lined streets and stag beetles noisily hovering under a fretted iron street lamp. The kitchen is three times the size of our kitchen, and foreign, hung with paintings. There are three windows all without mullions but they aren’t doors. It’s dark outside and I’m alone in the house, sitting on the scrubbed pine table with my bare feet up on the dresses because I’m painting my toenails and drinking real coffee.
My book Bonjour Tristesse (in French) is open beside me. I’ve turned on the radio hoping to hear the Beatles’ first LP. There’s some Bach. I fiddle with the dial. After more solemn music an announcement President Kennedy is dead. Above the radio is a sketch of a sparrow by Picasso on a red mount. I know now it was not an original. I was kissed by a Frenchman the week before. I am 19 and this is just the beginning of my life.